Who is ELISE?

TO YOU GUYS OUT THERE WHO NEEDS ADVICE, MAYBEI CAN GIVE YOU...LOL

2008-01-07T20:46:00.000+08:00

DON'T BE SHY, EVERYONE NEEDS SOMEONE. . . .

I KNOW THERE ARE SOMETHINGS YOU WANT TO TELL TO YOUR FRIENDS THAT YOU JUST CAN'T TELL BECAUSE MAYBE YOU'RE SHY ARE SCARED WHAT THEY MAY SAY TO YOU...

WELL, THAT'S WHAT I AM HERE FOR...

JUST LEAVE YOUR COMMENT WITH YOUR NAME AND MAYBE YOUR EMAIL ADD FOR ME TO REPLY TO YOU...

BUT IF YOU DON'T WANT TO, JUST KEEP UPDATED ON MY BLOG,AND MAYBE I CAN POST MY REPLY TO YOU...

HOPE TO HEAR FROM YOU SOON....

TAKE CARE AND GOD BLESS...:)

IKUTA TOMA SOSHITTE SHIROTA YUU HONTONI KAWAII!!!!!

2007-12-15T10:41:00.000+08:00

OMG!!!!!!!

isn't IKUTA TOMA and SHIROTA YUU freakin' hot???!!

i first saw ikuta toma in HANA KIMI, he plays nakatsu who fell in love with mizuki who disguised herself as a guy and nakatsu thought that he is a HOMO, but "ore wa homo janaii!!" (i am not a homo!). well, he figured it out that mizuki was just disguisingin the later part of the series. . . he's also in akihabara@deep, he plays box-kun,a clean-freak,fears women,an otaku (just like me). well,i'm currently watching akihabara@deep so i can't tell evrything aboutthe story. :)

i first saw shirota yuu in PRINCE TENNIS LIVE, well, actually, i'm still gonna watch it. lol! anyway, i also sawhim at HANA KIMI! he plays kagurasaka, sano's rival at high jumping. he is sooooooo cute and funny there, just like toma. i'm still watching akihabara@deep, after that i'll watch prince tennis live!!

here are some pictures of them! sooooooooooo cute!

GLoOmY sUnDaY: my suicidal song

2007-12-11T17:41:00.000+08:00

Sunday is gloomy,
My hours are slumberless
Dearest the shadows
I live with are numberless
Little white flowers
Will never awaken you
Not where the black coaches
Sorrow has taken you
Angels have no thoughts
Of ever returning you
Wouldnt they be angry
If I thought of joining you?

Gloomy sunday

Gloomy is sunday,
With shadows I spend it all
My heart and i
Have decided to end it all
Soon therell be candles
And prayers that are said I know
But let them not weep
Let them know that Im glad to go
Death is no dream
For in death Im caressin you
With the last breath of my soul
Ill be blessin you

Gloomy sunday

Dreaming, I was only dreaming
I wake and I find you asleep
In the deep of my heart here
Darling I hope
That my dream never haunted you
My heart is tellin you
How much I wanted you
Gloomy sunday

flunked again

2007-10-17T11:14:00.000+08:00

i hate it!!!

i flunked again!!!!

huhuhuhuh,

i'm gonna die!!!!!

how come anatomy physiology is so damn hard???

i mean, it's not really that hard, it's the exam that is hard!!!!!

huhuhuhuh

i'm gonna die!!!!

' ' 'CONFUSED OR STILL CONFUSED?' '

2007-10-10T09:10:00.000+08:00

A FRIEND TOLD ME THAT,
'DON'T GET MIXED UP WITH YOUR FEELINGS,YOU'RE JUST LIKE THAT BECAUSE YOU COMMUNICATE TOO OFTEN.MAYBE HE'S LIKE THAT BECAUSE HE'S GETTING ANNOYED WITH YOU.DON'T BE FOOLED BY THE GUY YOU LIKE'

I THINK MY FRIEND IS RIGHT. . .
I SHOULD NOT MIXED MY FEELINGS. . .
HE'S JUST A FRIEND,NOTHING MORE NOTHING LESS. . .

HE IS TOO PERFECT FOR ME,HONESTLY. . .
WE HAVE TOO DIFFERENT WORLDS. . .
THAT'S WHY I'M CREATING A GAP BETWEEN US. . .
ANYWAYS,IT'S NOT LIKE THAT WE'LL BE FRIENDS NO MORE,
WE'LL BE FRIENDS. . . .[PERIOD]

INSTEAD OF WORRYING THINGS LIKE THIS I SHOULD BE WORRYING ABOUT MY GRADES!!!!!!

TO THOSE WHO CAN READ THIS, I'M OKAY, I'M NOT CONFUSED ANYMORE. . . I KNOW WHAT TO DO I KNOW WHAT I'M FFELING NOW. . .
HE' JUST A FRIEND.[PERIOD]

ANYWAYS,I'LL GO BACK TO MY ORIGINAL BUSINESS. . . . STUDYING!!! [LOL] ^_^

' ' ' 'MY FEARS' ' ' '

2007-10-10T08:40:00.000+08:00

If you get more than 30 I strongly recommend some counseling!

IF you get more than 20 you’re paranoid

If you get 10-20 then uare normal.

If you get 10 or less you’re fearless.

People who don’t have any are full of sh*t!

I Fear…

[] the dark

[x] staying single forever [oh yes! ireally do!]

[] being a parent

[x] giving birth [it's soooo sakit!] [lol]

[] being myself in front of others

[] open spaces

[] closed spaces

[x] heights [ohhh,i hate to see the site from up. . .i feel like i'm gonna fall] [lol]

[] black cats

[] dogs

[] birds

[] fish

[] spiders

[] flowers or other plants

[] being touched

[] fire

[x] deep water [it's because i fear of drowning] [lol]

[] lakes

[] silk

[x] the ocean [it's not the ocen i fear but the creatures beneath it] [lol]

[x] failure [who isn't afraid of failure?]

[] success

[x] thunder/lightning [i really do fafer thunder! it makes my heart skip a beat, i hate it!] [lol]

[] frogs/toads[

[] my boyfriend's dad

[] my boyfriend's mom

[] mice/rats

[x] jumping from high places [its the same as heights]

[] snow

[] rain

[] wind

[] crossing hanging bridges

[] death

[] heaven

[x] being robbed [i hate it!]

[] falling

[x] clowns [i don't fear them i HATE them]

[] large crowds of people

[] men

[] women

[] having great responsibilities

[x] doctors, including dentists [i don't know why, no wonder i have never been admitted to the

hospital]

[x] tornadoes [who isn't?!]

[x] hurricanes [who isn't?]

[] incurable diseases

[x] snakes [i just hate them!]

[x] sharks [those gigantous teeth!!!]

[] Friday the 13th

[x] ghosts [so ironic! i fear them but i can feel there presence!]

[] poverty

[] Halloween

[] school

[] trains

[] odd numbers

[] even numbers

[] being alone

[x] becoming blind [uhhhhh,no need to explain]

[x] becoming deaf [no need to explain either]

[] growing up

[] monsters under my bed (as in scarypeople)

[x] creepy noises in the night

[] bee stings

[x] not accomplishing my dreams/goals [

[] needles

[] blood

[] dinosaurs if they were alive

[] the welcome mat

[] high speeds

[] throwing up

[x]falling in love [uhhhhhh,i don't know why. . .[lol]]

post ur total score out of 70

A STRANGER IN THE HOUSE. . .

2007-10-02T21:52:00.000+08:00

do you know who is the person i hate the most?????

well, none other than my brother. . .

people kept telling me,

'Lise, bisag unsa pa na nimo ka-hate imong kuya, imo gihapon nang kuya'

yeah sure he is my blood-related,brother in short. . .

but i don't see him as my brother. . .

i treat him as a stranger. . .

"pnaka-baga'g nawng, walang utang na loob!"

these are the words i kept on telling to myself. . .

guys, don't think that i'm such a harsh sister. . .

you do not know the story behind our conflict. . .

i got problems too you now, but my problem is my brother. . .

i hate the devil inside him. . .

he's not the "kuya" i know. . .

i envy those people who has a brother who is so sweet, so kind, so gentle. . .

i really envy them, who seems so close to each other. . .

i envy those little sis or bro. who has a brother that treats them nicely. . .

i had that brother, once. . .

and i lost him a long time ago. . .

from a sweet,caring,gentle brother,

to a devil in disguise. . .

he may show his "SENSITIVE SIDE", but please, don't be deceive by those looks. . .

that's just the devil who disguises himself. . .

you can say, i really hate my brother. . .

yes, but it's not him i hate but the devil inside him. . .

i hate the way he treats us like we are no one to him!

i hate the way he treats the girls! his kids and practically everyone!

honestly, it came to my mind that one day, i might kill him while he

sleeps, while he eats or while he is turning his back. . .

if only killing was not a crime, i would have done it earlier to stop the burden and pains we have!

he is too much. . .

if you'll ask me what kind of pains we've been through because of him,

it will take me days to enumerate those pains. . .

so don't wonder if you'll ask me about my brother,i'll give you a smirk, you know the reason. . .

i wonder if those kind of people can change?

honestly, the other half of me wants him to go away and the other one,

wants him to change for the better, for our sake. . .

right now, all i can do, is watch him torture us [verbally or kng wala siya sa tarung pangutok niya, maybe physically]

i'm glad that i have partially let out my feelings towards him through this blog. . . think whatever you may think about this or about him or about me. . .

i'll just remind you: "YOU DON'T KNOW THE STORY BEHIND OUR CONFLICT"

better ask me before judging. . .

if ever he is reading this blog of mine, which i doubt, or anyone who knows him. . . .

[kahibalo jud ko naa jud]

"PLEASE LANG! CHANGE NAH! FOR THE BETTER AND NOT FOR THE WORST! MA-LUOY KA!"

"GOD HELP US, HELP MY BROTHER!"

are my last words for this blog. . .

NEVER BLAME ME BOIE. . .

2007-10-02T19:42:00.001+08:00

damn! i met this guy, who seems so perfect. . .

[LOVE is of all passions the greatest, because it simultaneously hits the heart, the head and the sense -sir Lot-]

he has all the qualities i'm looking fo in a guy, DAMN! is he the right guy fo me?!
GIVE ME A SIGN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"can you picture me as your partner for life?"
"i wanna knoe what turns you on"
"i wanna knoe what makes you cry, so i can be the one who makes you smile. . ."

a lot of things are running in my mind. . .what will i do if this happens and that happens. . .what will i say, what to do,if you're the one or not, is this a sign or what. . .
DAMN boie, you're making it hard fo me!

I knoe i said that you're the guy i've been looking for, but i guess, you're not that perfect. . .

you see, in life, not everything needs to be perfect. . .

sometimes, you need to break some rules to enjoy life. . .and i knoe you knoe what i mean. . .

boie, lighten up a little, break some rules. . .be a bad boie once in a while. . .

boie, you made me feel this feeling again,and i thank you fo that. . .
you see boie, this all started when we became fwendz. . .

i tried to stop this feeling but like what alex said "ba't ang bike, pwede mag-break, yung cellphone nalo-low batt, ba't yung puso di na pipigilan?"
[well, actually, it's the feelings not the heart]
well, you get what i mean. . .

boie, because of you, i'm getting soooo confused. . .

should i or should i not. . .
huhuhuhuhu. . .

i guess, i will not be in such a hurry. . .

if you are the one, we'll see. . . .
if not, then. .. .NICE KNOWING YOU BOIE! [LOL]

wwhen a boy makes a girl jealous. . .

2007-06-16T23:11:00.000+08:00

a boyand a girl,the best of friends.

From elementary to high school

frombeginning to end.

Through all those yearstheir friendship grew.

They both felt the same,but neither knew.

Each waking momentsince theday they met.

They both loved each othersunrise to sunset.

He was all she hadin her terrible life.

He was the onewho kept her from her knife.

She was his angel,she made him smile.

Though life threw him curves,she made it all worth while

.Then one day,things went terribly wrong.

The next few weekswere like a very sadsong.

He made her jealouson purpose he tried.

When the girl asked, "Do you love her?"on purpose he lied.

He played with jealousylike it was a game.

Little did he knowThings would never be the same.

His plan was workingbut he had no clue.

How wrong things would go,the damage he would do.

One night she broke down,feeling veryalone.

Just her and the blade,no one else home.

She dialed his number,he answered, "Hello"She told him she loved himand hung up the phone.

He raced to herhousejust a minute too late.

Found her lying in blood,her hearthad no rate.

Beside her was a note,in it her confession.

Her love for this boy,her only obsession.

As he read the note,he knelt down and cried.

Grabbed her knife,that night they both died.

She was found in his arms,both of them dead.

Under hernotehis handwriting said:"I loved herso, she never knew.All this timeI loved hertoo

."if u dont repost this in 20 minutes..

u will losethelove ofur life and never get them backTitle it...

"WHEN A BOY MAKES A GIRLJEALOUS"

you're heartless! ! !

2007-06-16T23:05:00.000+08:00

Message: IF this doesnt touchyou,you havenoheart.........

Daniel and Jasmine are sitting alone inthe parkone night....

Daniel: I guess we are the left oversinthisworld

Jasmine: I think so... All of myfriendshaveboyfriends and we are only the 2personsleft inthis world without any special personinour lives

Daniel: Yup I don't know what to do

Jasmine: I know! We'll play a game

Daniel: What game?

Jasmine: i'll be your girlfriend for30 daysand youwill be my boyfriend

Daniel: That's a great plan in fact idon'thaveanything to do for the followingweeks...

DAY 1:They watch their first movie and theybothtouchedin a romantic film

DAY 4:They went to the beach and had apicnic...Danieland Jasmine had their quality timetogether

DAY 12:Daniel invited Jasmine to a circus andthey rodeona Horror House....Jasmine was scaredandshetouched Daniel's hand but she touchedsomeoneelse's hand and they both laughed...

DAY 15:They saw a fortune teller down the roadand theyasked for their future advice and thefortune tellersaid: "My darlings, Please don't wastethetime ofyour life... spend the rest of yourtimetogetherhappily" Then tears flow out from theteller's eyes

DAY 20:Jasmine invited Daniel to go to thehilland theysaw a meteor...Jasmine mumbledsomething

DAY 28:They sat on the bus and because of abumby roadJasmine gave her first kiss to Danielbyaccident

DAY 29:11:37pm Jasmine and Daniel sat in the parkwheretheyfirstdecided to play this game...Daniel: I'm tired Jasmine...Do you wantanydrinks? I'll buy you one.. I'll justgo downthe road

Jasmine: Apple Juice that's all

Daniel: Wait for me....20mins later... a stranger approachedJasmineStranger: Are you a friend of Daniel?

Jasmine: Why yes? What happened?

Stranger: A reckless drunken driver ranoverDanieland he is critical in the hospital

11:57pm

The doctor went out of the emergencyroom andhehanded out an apple juice and a letter

Doctor: We found this in daniel'spocket

Jasmine reads the letter and it says:

Jasmine, This past few days, i realizedyou are areally cute girl and i am reallyfalling foryou..Yourcherished.... smile you were everythingwhen weplayed this game..... Before this gamewouldend...I would like you to be mygirlfriendfor therest of my life.... I love youJasmine...

.Jasmine crumples the paper and shouted:

"Daniel ! i don't want you to die... Iloveyou...Remember that night when we sawa meteor,I mumbled something... I mumbled that Iwish wewould be together forever and never endthisgame.Please don't leave me Daniel.... I loveyou! Youcannot do this to me!"

Then the clock strikes 12Daniel's heart stop pumping

THEN IT WAS THE 30TH DAY........

Always love your loved ones and showthem howyou feel before it is too late...

Youwillnever knowwhen they will be gone from yourembrace...

If youwere given a time to bestow petals ofeverlastingcompassion and love to your lovedones.

.Today isthe day....

Love them while they arestillhere...

Copy Paste and after 24hours ....

Yourloved onewill realize how they are significanttoyou!

Repost this in 5min.and a miracle will happen tonight

PSDo not ignore or youll regret it later

BLACK

2007-06-16T23:02:00.000+08:00

GOTCHA!!!

Becauseyou openedthis youwill bad luck for 7 years!!

BUT if your repost thiswithin1 hour

you will have good luck

andyour wish will come true in the next 6weeks!!

ORANGE - you give up

BROWN - you hate someone

YELLOW - still waiting for that someone

WHITE - you like being single

BLACK - you want a gf/bf

BLUE - you miss someone

PURPLE - you never want to be in arelationship

GREEN - you love someone

RED - you think the one you lovedoesn't love you

PINK - you have a crush on someon

eGREY- you feel like friendship isbetter than truelove

2007-06-16T22:58:00.000+08:00

..get to know me better..

1.Describe yourself in one wordwhen it comes to love?

> sensitive
2. Who would you pick, someone whoreally loves you or the one you reallylove?

>someone i love and who loves me back trully. . .
3. Have you ever loved someone BEFOREbut never had the courage to tell him?

>nope. . .i always confess my feeling so no regretsin the future. . .
4.Does it feel good to love?

>yup. . .for real. . .
5.God is giving u just 5 more minutesto live, IF you love someone what willyou say to that person?

>"just look at the rainbow, just imaginei'm in the other end,waiting for you. . ."(RACH! ! )
6.What will you say to someone whodoesn't want to believe you loveher/him?

>if you won't believe me then it's up to you.
7.Which one hurts the most, he left youor played with you?

> either way,it still hurts. . .
8.Was there ever a time that you triedto learn to love someone?

>i'm true to my feelings. . .
9.What's yOur opinion about someonewho's jealous?

>insecure siya
10.What can you say about someone whotries to resist love?

>still hurting inside. . .
11.What can you say about playboys andplaygirls?

>way lingaw!
12.What can you say aboutthose who hurt you?

>thanks a lot coz i learned a valuable lesson
13.What can you say to the person wholoves you now?

>if naa,thank you
14.Are you fast on having acrush on someone?

>liking? yup. . .
15. Are you a jealous type?

>yup. . .insecure man gud ko
16.Important FRIENDS OR FAMILY?

> both

2007-05-24T12:58:00.000+08:00

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past
I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time to clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make through without a way back into love
Oh


I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's gotta be something for my soul somewhere


I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction and I'm open to your suggestions


All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping that you'll be there for me in the end


Oh


There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration not just another negotiation


All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you'll help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

cAn'T jUsT sOmEoNe LoVe mE???
(cHaR!!! nyAhAhAHaHA!!!)

. . . qUiEtLy. . .

2007-05-14T11:48:00.000+08:00

in a place where everything is dark, is where i stand.

i can hear my heart beating through my ears.

i asked myself, 'where am i?'

i must be dead.

i patiently wait for a light to shine,

for someone to tap on my shoulder and say

'everything is alright now.'

as i wait, i heard voices.

it must be my imagination.

i hear voices but i could not see anyone,

i must have turned blind.

at that pooint, i began to think,

if i die today, i must be ready.

everybody will die eventually, after all no one got out alive.

life is full of surprises.

one day you live,

the next day, you'll never know, you'll die.

i won't complain to that, i accept death.

and now, i'm dying slowly to htis emptiness.

these voices i hear, i don't know who is it from.

all i know is, they don't exist and i...

i am alone...

. . . A n n O U n c E m E n t . . .

2007-05-13T20:48:00.000+08:00

well, i guess what i posted last may 11 (about my past)

was just a joke to some people...

and i guess, they are right!!

you see, i got carried away...

i just remembered it when i saw him (i mean his account)

really,honestly,i got carried away.

i just don't know why i did that.

you see, once i get carried away, i do stuff out of my mind.

you know, not thinking and still doing it.

that's what i did.

for those who commented about that blog i posted,

i know you think that i haven't moved on yet.

i haven't forgot the things that happened,

and i haven't forgotten him.

but the feelings i have for him has vanished.

i know you can't tell because words are easily spoken.

but it's up to you to judge, whether i have or haven't moved on...

and to the person who said to look for another,

i tell you:

you can never look for love because love will come to you..

i'm just waiting...

BEWARE: my DARK side has shown

2007-05-12T12:39:00.000+08:00

ever heard of the anime, DEATH NOTE?
weLL, i have, and know what? enemies of mine beware!!! i have the DEATH NOTE in my hands!!! bwahahahahahahahaha!!!!

but, seriously...i'm just kidding...
if only i have the death note, then i could erase my every enemy...

you see...i ain't afraid to die...some people are afraid to die and i don' know why...
evenually, every one of us will die...
remember what bugs bunny said: "don't take life too seriously, after all, no one has got out alive in it..."
he's right...do you know someone who live for 2007 years? (well, except for Jesus Christ)

if i were you, you must enjoy your life... you know why?
LIFE IS TOO SHORT, my dear...
enjoy it as if you'll die tomorrow...

worrying will not solve anyhing...i tell you...

well, i'm just expressing my self... because i just finished watching DEATH NOTE...

SuiCidE nOtE

2007-05-09T23:02:00.000+08:00

The sharpest blade i ever touched
it made a deep cut at my first slash
blood is rushing out; i could only see black spots.
Full of problems, full of anxiety,
so pressured by the people around me.
They want me to do this and to do that,
do things that i really don't want to do.
I got tired of doing it, and all i could think of is
the sharpest blade i saw on our kitchen sink.
people are so different.
They could not understand me!
Damn, why is it so hard to live my life?
A problem that could only be solved by one way i know...

"MY DEATH IS MY ONLY FREEDOM. . ."

a sOng tHat i cOuLd rELaTe tO...

2007-05-09T21:56:00.000+08:00

I REMEMBER THE BOY

Joey Albert

Today I heard them play the song again
An old familiar strain from way back when
Ev'ry note and ev'ry line
It's always been a fav'rite song of mine
It used to haunt me so some years ago
Reminds me of the boy I used to know
And although the melody lives on
The mem'ries and the boy are all but gone
And while the song still brings that certain glow
And the words still sing of love I know
It isn't why the way it was before
I remember the boy but I don't remember
the feelings anymore
The promises we made seem easier then
As if we knew our love would never end
But seasons change and time erases the tears
As swiftly as the rivers disappear
So while the song still brings that certain glow
And the words still sing of love I know
It isn't why the way it was before
I remember the boy but I don't remember
the feelings I remember the boy
but I don't remember the feelings anymore